She didn’t just survive. She became.
— Terri St. Cloud

Stay tuned for download-able versions of our application forms that allow you to apply for a grant to help meet your treatment expenses.  In the meantime, you can contact us
via email with a grant request and we'll send you the forms right away.

Please send grant requests, completed applications, and any questions regarding the process to:
BAB.GrantRequests@gmail.com

 

BAB CORRESPONDENCE NOTICE: Your voice matters. Your story is important. We care deeply about your pain - both past and present. However, knowing details of the trauma you've experienced - especially those which are graphic in nature - will not help us help you more. In fact, it can deplete our resources and clarity, leaving us less efficient in guiding you to the help you deserve. Severity of trauma also has zero bearing on approval of grant applications. We care about you, so for your safety and ours, we ask that you refrain from sharing traumatic material.
In the event of an emergency, please contact your local crisis center or call 911. We will gladly help when your safety has been ensured.

 

  We know far too well that the number of treatment providers that may be available in a given region is sometimes a flat zero.  And that, even if we had endless funds to approve every single grant and ensure everyone could get treatment financially, that doesn't always mean that there's anyone around to provide that care.  We're working on that!  But, in the meantime, we don't want to leave you with nothing.  (Or even feeling like there's nothing.)  Sure, on our Resource page you can find many websites and books that are great for learning, or feeling understood, but most can't help you work through your own personal "tough stuff".  So, we wanted to pluck out a few specific items just for you and recommend those here because they are workbooks. They exist to help facilitate your individual recovery and are often used as an adjunct to therapy.  But if you are on your own and it's all you can get your hands on, we know what a godsend than can be to so, so many!

Growing Beyond Survival: A Self-Help Toolkit for Managing Traumatic Stress by Elizabeth Vermilyea  -- This is one of the best workbooks for just about anyone who would be perusing our site and seeking treatment - whether you have PTSD, C-PTSD or any dissociative disorder.  It teaches you about your condition; provides loads of symptom management skills (like grounding, containment, modulation for intense feelings or self-harm urges, imagery for pain or sleep, and so much more); helps you deal with intrusive memories, panic and dissociation; and asks you questions to help you work through the harder material at your own pace.  This one gets the longest description and the top spot because it is useful to just about everyone in a big way.  It's got the fundamental tools we all need in order to lay the groundwork that allow us to safely continue our journey to wellness - and that is especially important when you are working on you own until you can find someone to help guide you through the truly traumatic pieces.

Amongst Ourselves: A Self-Help Guide to Living with Dissociative Identity Disorder by Tracy Alderman and Karen Marshall  -- This is one of the only workbooks that we know of that's specific to those with Dissociative Identity Disorder.  The above workbook will still definitely facilitate so much of the PTSD side of your disorder, but this will really engage with the other side.  It is dated (it's from the early 90s), so some of the information is likely out of touch with the current understanding of DID and structural dissociation, but it's still likely to help facilitate many of the basic tools necessary in treating DID - like getting to know your system, internal communication and beginning to gain internal cooperation.

Becoming Yourself: Overcoming MC and RA by Alison Miller  --  This workbook has the highest specificity for whom it will apply, and that is for only the small subset of survivors who have RA/MC backgrounds.  This is truly one of the most comprehensive, informative and interactive books on the subject at all, let alone workbooks.  Given that the prevalence of treatment providers who specialize in this field is even dramatically less than C-PTSD and DID therapists, this could be your greatest tool in understanding what has happened to you and is still happening now, helping you decide for yourself what is likely real and what is not, and really just facilitating many broad and nuanced aspects of your healing tremendously.  This is true even if you have a therapist and use thus within your therapy, but it's a really tremendous asset if you have no one you can turn to or trust.

The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk -- After a little thought, we decided to add this book in here, too, even though it's an exception in that it is not a workbook and will not interact with you therapeutically.  But, this book is still a remarkable instrument in teaching you the neurology behind your disorder, which can help you look at your wellness entirely differently.  And, as it turns out, that's pretty important.  This book demonstrates things from a scientifically proven and physiologic perspective as he explicates the power and necessity of physical movement, amongst other things, in trauma survivors' recovery.  van der Kolk firmly delineates how much a survivor can begin to heal their mind, even without talk therapy, (providing many examples and evidence along the way) by being intentional about their physical movement.  So, how could we NOT include it in a list of resources for "starting to heal without a therapist"?!  Because there are things you can definitely do to help yourself now!

  Unfortunately, any resource or book is going to cost money, and any workbook that is helping guide your treatment is going to be even more expensive.  We recognize this and know that it may not be a cost that you can tackle yourself, even after scouting those who are selling them at discounted prices.  If you find yourself in this place, don't hesitate to contact us and see if this could be the grant we'd approve for you since a treatment provider wasn't available for you.  We will gladly look into what we can do for you here.

One final note:  Even if you think there are no treatment providers in your area that treat C-PTSD and it's not worth contacting us for help, please reconsider.  We might be able to help you locate one you didn't even realize was there since many don't advertise themselves as such.  Give it a shot and the worst that happens is we know that's an area that really needs our attention for education and awareness!  The best that happens is you find a therapist!